Tuesday, September 27, 2011

New drawing

Orchis Orchis
Ballpoint pen and felt-tip marker on paper
Approx. 11 in. x 8.5 in.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Quote of the Day

We need to make books cool again.  If you go home with somebody and they don't have books, don't fuck them.  

-- John Waters

Couldn't have said it better myself. If I owned my own bookstore, I'd have this printed on a poster, on prominent display.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Last-minute art project

I have until September 30th to do something with this:
Project for upcoming show

The artists participating in the show (called Paint the Ta Tas, a breast cancer awareness theme), were given blank torsos to decorate.  I got the last one, a male torso.  The show will run during the months of October through December.  I have some great ideas for it and I'll post more soon, including more photos of my project as well as the details for the opening reception, with relevant dates, times, and locations.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

3 of my drawings now available as wearable art!

Like my drawings? Now you can wear miniature versions of them!

My friend The Mushroom Lady (aka Tracy Rotkiewicz ), a Connecticut crafter and artist, has collaborated with me, transforming a few of my drawings into necklace designs!

You can check them out here:

Cm Pauluh design To The Pain memory wire necklace

To The Pain

Cm Pauluh design Panspermia memory wire necklace

Panspermia (Spiritchaser)

Cm Pauluh design Aphonic memory wire necklace


All sales directly help to support both artists and help us to make more art!

New drawing

Seasons of Pain
Seasons of Pain 
Ballpoint pen and felt-tip marker on paper
Approx. 5.5 in. x 8.5 in.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

New drawing

Untitled (September 18, 2011)
Untitled (September 18, 2011)
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 5.5 in. x 8.5 in.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

The Obligatory "Tenth Anniversary of 9/11" Post, or How I Learned to Overcome My Trauma and Get On With My Life

I'll spare you most of the details of my "I remember where I was when it happened" story, and instead tell you how I transformed my trauma and pain into a virtual-reality art installation that eventually healed me.

It was 2006, and I was just starting to get the hang of creating things in Second Life.  I was offered a spot to build in the then-annual Burning Life festival (their virtual version of Burning Man).  My installation was based on my emotional reaction to the events of September 11, 2001.  I titled it Paranoia / Watching the Sky for Planes.

'Paranoia / Watching the Sky For Planes' - 7

I was at work when it happened, so one of the main focal points of the site was a recreation of where I was exactly when I first heard that a plane had hit the World Trade Center.  (For those of you who don't know me, I work at a bookstore.)

'Paranoia / Watching the Sky For Planes' - 4

'Paranoia / Watching the Sky For Planes' - 6

From the information card I had written for visitors to my installation:

Although it may not seem that way at first, this installation is highly personal and is not primarily a political piece. In other words, political issues were not my main reason for building it. Rather, this installation represents the emotional chaos I personally experienced on and after September 11, 2001.  
To put it bluntly, it fucked me up pretty badly, although I was very lucky to not have been directly affected by it. I had been at work (at a bookstore) when one of my co-workers told me the news.  For a long time after that day, I was terrified every time I heard or saw a plane fly overhead. I lived near an airport at the time, and what had once been an everyday sound now sent me into a panic.  
I am a highly empathic person, and being acutely aware of the emotional state of literally everyone around me, I often became completely overwhelmed in the months following. I was like many who couldn't turn off the television or stop watching. Since then, I've pretty much stopped paying attention to the news altogether.

'Paranoia / Watching the Sky For Planes' - 8

In 2008, I built a smaller revision of the installation at ArthOle (a collaborative Second Life gallery that I shared with Steve Millar (aka Arahan Claveau).

Paranoia/Watching The Sky For Planes - remembering September 11th (part 1)

Paranoia/Watching The Sky For Planes - remembering September 11th (part 3)

Paranoia/Watching The Sky For Planes - remembering September 11th (part 2)

'Paranoia/Watching The Sky For Planes' closing this weekend

Building the installation helped to purge me of any remaining trauma I had in the wake of 9/11.  Now that a decade has passed, I just want to, finally, be over it for good.  It happened, it was awful, it was sad, it was a tragedy.  It's over now.  I want September 11th to be just another ordinary day again.  I don't WANT to keep unearthing the trauma and wallowing in it for fucking ever.  I don't know why the fuck the majority of Americans do.  Getting on with life is not a disservice to the dead.

A wise friend of mine, Bau, recently posted a spot-on update to Facebook, and with hir permission, I am sharing it here:
Not memorializing 9/11. Not turning on the radio or TV until tomorrow. 
The more we memorialize the date with emotional displays and rhetoric, the more we show how much it harmed us psychologically and how much we have been driven by it ever since. And that's the wrong thing to do. 
 Anybody that ever got beat up by sadistic bullies as a kid would know this. You don't let them see you cry any more than strictly necessary. You don't, the next year, announce that, because of them, you pay a taxi instead of walking home, and you don't, five years later, notify them that you still have nightmares about what they did. You certainly don't, after ten years, contrive little public ceremonies where you display your scars and remind your tormentors of how effective they were. 
 I grieved the rescue workers who got killed trying to help, the police and EMTs and firefighters, because even though I did not know them, they are "mine" in the sense that they are "ours" -- they were the kind of people that try to help everybody, and everybody therefore has a connection to them. And I recognize the grief of the people who lost loved ones. 
 But that is individual feeling and individual harm. As a *nation* (and the *nation* was, after all, the target!!) with as big a population as we have, the *number* of people that died was insignificant. The harm to our infrastructure was negligible. Prolonging and exaggerating the emotional elevation of that harm is irrational and counterproductive. 
 The orchestrated conflation of mourning and patriotism surrounding 9/11 has accomplished no good in the past ten years that I have seen. 
 It has, however, served to fuel hatred against Muslims and fearful compliance with useless, expensive security measures, and slavish concession to the Patriot Acts which did violence to our Constitution. That was, indeed, a harm to our nation, and we did it to ourselves. 
 In my opinion we as a nation should have acted as if we hardly noticed the damages of 9/11 and we should have hardly ever mentioned that it was done by "Muslims". It was done by theocratic extremists. 
 If we really want to disempower them, we should stop re-enacting their drama for them. By overreacting and continuing to overreact to those events, we have been doing their work for them, ever since.

Exactly.  And with that, I am off to get ready for work.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Art Patronage Wanted

As many of you know, I have a part-time retail job. I'm absolutely grateful to have it, especially because of the health/dental insurance and other benefits I get, but it barely pays the bills. In the past few months, I have been working hard to get my art career really going. Unfortunately, there are a lot of expenses associated with it -- materials, entrance fees, transportation costs, etc. -- sadly, it takes money to make money. I have been dipping into my savings fund (which was originally started to save up for a car), and it is dwindling, but I have a lot of things to prepare in order to be ready for Open Studios Hartford in early November. I have the potential to get a LOT of good exposure and to make a lot of sales. I have a few paintings to sell, and I can make prints and postcards of my drawings. I'm working on making a mold of the Bunnyken head too, and can make various sculptures and art dolls based on that. (I'm also totally open to suggestions about what to make/sell. If you have any ideas, I'd love to hear them!)

Here are some of my upcoming expenses:

-- Business cards
-- Printing costs for art prints
-- Mats and frames
-- Website costs (Going to pick up a .com soon and have a REAL website, not just a blog)  - DONE!
-- More molding material to fill the other half of the Bunnyken casting (I underestimated and didn't buy enough the first time I ordered it)
-- Plastic/resin or other materials for filling the finished mold
-- New folio to archive new drawings - DONE!

Bunnyken head molding

If you can find it in your heart to donate something, ANYTHING, even a few bucks, I would seriously be eternally grateful. For anyone who donates $5 or more, I will send you a print of your choice of ANY of my drawings and a thank-you note. I have a Paypal site where you can donate directly. You don't have to have a Paypal account, just a credit card or debit card will do.


I hope to make enough of an income someday from my art to be able to support myself, but I've got a LONG way to go and a LOT of work to do until then. I'm on my way, but it's going to take awhile. I love you all for your encouragement and support. Art means everything to me.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Want to buy: nebulosus.com

I want to set up an official .com website soon, but the domain name I want, nebulosus.com, is not available. However, it IS for sale. Anyone out there familiar with the process of buying a domain? A link to the information is here:

My art on deviantART

I recently created a deviantART page and have slowly been uploading things over there. Check it out! Friend me there if you have an account yourself.