New drawing -- goal reached.

Hand Study
Pencil, Ballpoint pen, and unknown substance on paper
Approx. 8.5 in. x 11 in.
(2011)

The hand was sketched in pencil first. The rest of the drawing was completely improvised, straight in ink.

This drawing completes the folio I had started sometime in mid-June. My goal was to fill it by August 31, 2011. I did have a head start on it, filling it about halfway with drawings I had previously completed.

New drawing

Panspermia (Spiritchaser)
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 11 in X 8.5 in.
(2011)

Broken

It gets to a point in your life when you realize you are too fucked up to fix yourself or to be fixed by anything or anyone. And that your brokenness will prevent you from the things you really want, because you are too defective, and that will thwart and destroy the things you desire. It's like some kind of infectious disease. You will destroy the things you desire or love simply by touching them. The rot will spread and disintegrate everything.

From all the mistakes and mishaps and setbacks and pain and misfortune and heartbreak I have been through, I hoped and wished I could have at least learned something from it. The only thing I've learned is bitterness.

New drawing

Phantom Limb
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 5.5 in. x 8.5 in.
(2011)

Fortune Cookie roundup

I've been amassing Fortune Cookie fortunes on my desk for some reason or other, and some of them have had somewhat wise things to say:

Only the person who risks is truly free.

Have a vision. Be demanding.

This is a good time to consider formally helping others.

Awaken your divine nature within.

If you promise someone something, keep it.

Understanding the nature of change, changes the nature.

What is right is often forgotten by what is convenient.

The truth always shines through.

And then, there was this one:

"To rule with virtue is like the North Star has it place in the sky."

Amazing.

New drawing

Cut and Clear
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 8.5 in. x 11 in.
(2011)

Business card test designs

Going to get business cards printed soon, finally. Here are my first attempts at the design:

Front

Back

**Revision

New drawing

Hovering Above
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 5.5 in. x 8.5 in.
(2011)

New drawing

Galactic Cannibalism
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 5.5 in. x 8.5 in.
(2011)

New drawing

Thrust
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 8.5 in. x 11 in.
(2011)

Four new drawings

Done while visiting my dear friends in Wisconsin.

Fracture I
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 8.5 in. x 5.5 in.
(2011)



Fracture II
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 8.5 in. x 5.5 in.
(2011)



Fracture III
Ballpoint pen on paper
Approx. 8.5 in. x 5.5 in.
(2011)



Fracture IV
Ballpoint pen and felt-tip marker on paper
Approx. 8.5 in. x 5.5 in.
(2011)

Financial struggles

I have several canvases for sale and REALLY need the money - I have overdue bills that have REALLY piled up...! Please have a look at my Etsy shop.

http://www.etsy.com/shop/Nebulosus

I also accept donations via Paypal! Money received helps me to keep my art projects going, to pay my bills, etc. -- Thank you in advance!!

Flight.

Just survived (mentally, emotionally) my first plane ride EVER. In Detroit now, came from Milwaukee. Gonna be heading home to CT in a couple of hours. I think I am gonna have a beer.
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Destination

I can't even remember what time we arrived. Was it 11 pm or midnight? We're on Central Time here, so that has me a bit disoriented. In the span of about 1,000 miles, we didn't get stuck in traffic at all except for the last 10 miles or so - fucking figures, right? But we got here in one piece and I am relieved on multiple levels.

I'll spend the next few days hanging out with some near & dear friends, some I've met several times, some who are new to me. There will be music and food and non-specific funtime hanging out.

Then, the next phase of my journey begins. But more on that later. Time for me to pass the fuck out. Peace.

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Chicago.

Just passing through. Will be in Milwaukee soon-ish.

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On the road, part 2

Frequent stops today for rehydration (and the resulting restroom breaks). It's warm, not hot, but miles and miles on the road are draining.

It's so flat out here. Currently, we are in Indiana, less than 150 miles to Chicago. Almost nothing but miles and miles of farmland as far as the eye can see, puncuated by occasional trees and barns and homes.

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On the road

Today (or rather yesterday, since it is now technically Thursday), I set out on the first leg of a journey that would seem perhaps simple to most people, but a huge challenge to me.

I have not traveled more than a hundred or so miles from home since I was 12 years old. I am 35 now.

Today alone, my traveling companion and I have driven over 500 miles, I think. We have that much and more to travel tomorrow before we reach our destination in the suburbs of Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

I have also never traveled for very far with anyone who wasn't a very close friend or family member. My traveling companion for this trip is a dear friend who I've known for about 4 years, but have only met in the flesh for the first time late Tuesday night. We spent much of our time on the road discussing topics like the interconnectedness of all things, and whether jellyfish have the mental capacity to make choices, and other matters of life and love and wonder.

It was at some point passing through New York state, after the rains had cleared up a bit and the sun was blindingly bright, that I realized that this is a huge spiritual journey for me on a personal, emotional level. I'm not simply going to visit friends, I am going to help find myself. Two years ago, even ONE year ago, I would not have had the bravery to overcome my anxieties to make this journey. Even now, I am a bit scared.

From my hotel room in Erie, PA - goodnight, world. I'll keep you posted.
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Test post.

Test.
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Last chance to see 'Soul Mending'

I will be taking down my Second Life installation Soul Mending on Tuesday, August 9th, 2011.

I have no plans to set it up anywhere else, so this will be the last chance to experience it.

Teleport here: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/SaliMar/63/65/87